Read: 1 Samuel 19
But on the way to Naioth in Ramah the Spirit of God came even upon Saul, and he, too, began to prophesy all the way to Naioth! He tore off his clothes and lay naked on the ground all day and all night, prophesying in the presence of Samuel. The people who were watching exclaimed, “What? Is even Saul a prophet?” 1 Samuel 19:23-24
I love the many ways God works in this particular passage!
Through God, Samuel has chosen David to be the next king, but Saul is determined to kill him. Saul thinks he can out maneuver God, I guess?
First God works through David’s friend Jonathan to help him escape. Then He helps David ninja his way out of a hand to hand combat with Saul himself. Then his wife helps him escape out the back window. THEN God turns Saul, the ultimate “bad guy,” into a prophet!
Saul was a piece of work, wasn’t he? Even though he was the king, he was very threatened by David. He listened to the lies of Satan and, on several occasions, deliberately did the opposite of what God intended for him. He let his fear, jealousy, and insecurity get the best of him, which also damaged his relationship with God.
Sounds like someone I know. Oh, right… it’s me.
Ok, maybe I never maliciously set out to destroy someone…. certainly not kill someone. BUT, it’s SO very easy for me to listen to the enemy and his lies. It’s so easy for me to see myself as “not good enough,” or, more accurately, “not-as-good-as (fill in the blank) .” When I listen to the lies and compare myself to someone else, I feel inadequate, jealous, and insecure. Maybe my love language is words of affirmation (I don’t know… I think it changes every 15 minutes!)?
Conversely, when I see myself as God sees me, when I listen to His voice and direction, I realize who I really am. I am the only person God made like me, and He doesn’t make mistakes. I’m also the only person who can do what God created me to do, and that’s not dependent on anything or anyone else. When I don’t compare, I don’t feel threatened or jealous. When I’m doing what I was created to do, I don’t feel inadequate or insecure. I feel validated and loved beyond measure!
We know that we all fail. We’re all sinners, but God still uses us. Despite our shortcomings – and, believe me, there are shortcomings – God is still God. If he can turn Saul into a prophet, He can surely use me (and YOU) for His glory!
God, help me see myself through Your eyes. I so desperately want to hear Your voice and ignore the lies of Satan. Will You help me continue to grow into the person You made me to be? Forgive my shortcomings, God, and use me to expand Your kingdom and Your glory. Thank you for loving me enough to walk beside me in that process. In Jesus’ name, Amen.